Curses, Conned Again!

What is this so-called Big, Beautiful Bill About? I took some time to browse the internet to find a simple explanation, free from the arrogance often expressed by GOP & MAGA supporters. These are the "Trumpicons", not the Republicans of old. They have no consideration for God, Family, and the Republic; instead, they fall in line like zombies and the Borg. Yes, I even used AI. We can’t believe everything we see and read. Conduct your research and make an informed decision.

 

What’s in the Bill?

 

Tax Cuts Extended & Expanded.

Makes the 2017 Trump tax cuts permanent.

Adds new breaks (e.g., tax-free tips, overtime pay, higher child tax credit, and a Strategic Arms Limitation Talks (SALT) between the USA & Russia. (Hmmm) Tax cuts deduction cap raised to $40K/$80K). 

Sources: usahousinginformation.com, en.wikipedia.org, houstonchronicle.com

 

Significant Spending Cuts & Work Rules

 

Drastically reduces federal funding for Medicaid, SNAP (food stamps), and green energy programs.

Introduces strict work requirements (e.g., 80 hours/month for Medicaid recipients). 

Sources: en.wikipedia.org, vox.com, ijr.com, houstonchronicle.com, people.com, 

theguardian.com, ijr.com, indianexpress.com, Defense & Border Security Boost

 

Funds inject tens of billions into defense ($150B) and border enforcement ($70B+), including wall funding, ICE/CBP hires, and new surveillance. 

Sources: usahousinginformation.com, en.wikipedia.org, disruptarian.com, Green Energy Rollbacks.

 

Phases out clean-energy tax credits (for EVs, solar, and wind), significantly affecting energy costs and job creation.

Sources: 100percentfedup.com, houstonchronicle.com, time.com, vanityfair.com, indianexpress.com, usahousinginformation.com

 

Social Security, Medicare Cuts & Elder Care

 

Across-the-board 4% Medicare cuts starting in 2026, which could risk hospital resources and rural care.

 

Middle-to-upper-income seniors will benefit temporarily from the $6K/$12K deduction. Fewer taxes in the short term.

 

Low-income and vulnerable seniors will face increased healthcare & drug costs, reduced Medicaid/Medicare benefits, and food assistance rollbacks. 

 

Long-term care sector Nursing homes face delayed staffing mandates but squeezed funding overall, potentially leading to closures or cutbacks.

All seniors (long-term) will face a fiscal drag from the bill, which could further pressure Social Security’s sustainability.

 

If your income qualifies, prepare to maximize the senior deduction—but remember it expires after 2028.

 

Anticipate higher healthcare costs if you're low-income or rely on Medicaid/Medicare Savings Programs.

 

Watch for state-level rule changes—implementation of Medicaid cuts will vary by state and could be phased in over time.

 

Sources: Kiplinger.com, Bipartisan Policy Center, Skilled Nursing News, ssa.gov, Forbes.com

 

Other Policy Moves

 

Limits state regulation of AI. Adds border-crime penalties. Restricts funding for gender-affirming care, abortion providers, and non-profit tax status for those supporting terrorism. 

Sources: en.wikipedia.org, kiplinger.com, timesofindia.indiatimes.com, disruptarian.com, 

indivisiblebc.org

 

How Did This Law Pass? Why Does It Matter?

It utilized the budget reconciliation process, meaning it only required a simple majority in the Senate (51 votes), thereby avoiding the usual 60-vote requirement. In my opinion, crooked people do crooked things. They knew the bill wouldn’t get through. What’s done in the dark will be exposed. Many of you voted for these people.

Sources: washingtonpost.com, 100percentfedup.com, theguardian.com

 

Senate passage was tight. Vice President JD Vance broke a 50‑50 tie.

Sources: ijr.com, theguardian.com, nypost.com

 

Major Concerns & Criticism

 

Huge deficit: Adds $2.4–3.8 trillion to the national debt over 10 years. Didn’t this happen with Trump leaving office with more debt than we came in?

Healthcare losses: Up to 11 million people could lose Medicaid, with studies warning of thousands more deaths annually.

Source: vox.com

 

Unpopular cuts: Roughly 55% of Americans oppose the bill, while only 29% supported it. I’m sure that number will drop lower when they are affected.

Sources: time.com, govfacts.org

 

Environmental and social fallout: Clean-energy rollbacks, limits on rights for transgender care and abortion funding spur intense backlash. 

Sources: indianexpress.com, en.wikipedia.org

 

Why Call It “Beautiful”? Nothing beautiful about taking advantage of people and watching them suffer.

 

Supporters say it’s a streamlined, powerhouse package that locks in tax relief, boosts defense and border security, and forces federal spending discipline. The name is partly branding meant to signal simplicity and scope.

 

What Happens Next?

 

The Senate passed its version by July 1, 2025, and sent it to the House for final approval.

Sources: en.wikipedia.org, nypost.com

 

The House and Senate must reconcile their differences (such as the SALT cap and Medicare provisions) before the bill can be signed into law.

Democrats should weaponize this “Disgusting Bill’s” unpopularity in the 2026 midterms. We shall see.

Sources: indivisiblebc.org, time.com, kiplinger.com

 

This is a mega‑bill that mixes significant tax cuts for individuals and businesses with deep spending cuts to healthcare and green energy, alongside massive funding for defense and border control. Passed through a shortcut that only required a simple Senate majority, it’s already drawing fierce opposition—from lawmakers, public opinion, and financial watchdogs—because of its projected impact on deficits and vulnerable Americans. Whether it becomes law depends on final votes and political pushback in the next few weeks.

Sources: Kiplinger, New York Post

 

            There are other significant issues that we as Americans will face, such as student loans, tariffs, and deportation. Let’s reflect on the challenges or solutions that lie ahead.

 

The Student Loan Crisis

The rising cost of higher education in the United States has left millions of Americans burdened with student loan debt. As of 2025, over 43 million borrowers owe a collective $1.7 trillion, with many unable to make significant progress in repayment due to stagnant wages and inflated interest rates.

Student loans impact not only individual borrowers but also the broader economy. Young adults delay buying homes, starting families, or investing in businesses due to financial insecurity. While efforts like the Biden administration’s partial debt relief and income-driven repayment plans have provided some relief, long-term solutions remain politically divisive. Critics argue that widespread forgiveness is unfair to those who have paid off their loans. However, supporters maintain that accessible higher education is a public good and that debt relief could stimulate economic growth. It could happen if the economic playing field were level. The playbook is biased and corrupt. A sustainable path forward could include tuition-free community college, interest-free federal loans, and expanded Pell Grants to ensure education doesn’t come with a lifetime financial penalty.

Tariffs and Trade

Tariffs have been a controversial tool in U.S. economic policy, especially since the Trump administration's trade war with China. While designed to protect American industries from foreign competition, tariffs often result in higher prices for consumers and strained international relations.

Many Americans support tariffs to revive domestic manufacturing and create jobs. However, these policies can backfire. For example, tariffs on steel and aluminum increased production costs for U.S. companies that rely on those materials. Additionally, retaliatory tariffs imposed by other nations have harmed American farmers and exporters.

Moving forward, the challenge lies in striking a balance between economic protectionism and global competitiveness. Smart trade policy should include targeted tariffs, labor standards, including wages, and investment in domestic innovation rather than broad-based import taxes. American economic strength should come not from isolation but from competing fairly on a global stage.

Deportation and Immigration

Immigration has always been a cornerstone of American identity, but the debate over deportation and border security remains deeply divisive. Mass deportations, family separations, and detention center conditions have sparked national and international outrage in recent years.

Supporters of strict deportation policies argue that enforcing immigration laws is essential for national security and economic stability. On the other hand, opponents highlight the humanitarian cost and economic contributions of undocumented immigrants, many of whom have lived in the U.S. for decades, work essential jobs, and pay taxes.

A fair immigration policy should prioritize legal pathways to citizenship, protection for DACA recipients and asylum seekers, and humane enforcement. Rather than relying solely on deportation, the U.S. can invest in modernizing immigration courts, creating more efficient visa processes, and addressing root causes in migrants' home countries.

These three issues, student loans, tariffs, and deportation, highlight the complexity of American policy challenges. They are not isolated topics, but interconnected threads in the fabric of American life. Solving them will require empathy, compromise, and long-term thinking that prioritizes both individual well-being and national prosperity.

            There exists no new phenomenon under the sun; however, this blatant denial of rights for American citizens is therefore unsurprising to people of color. What could possibly motivate others to vote in favor of the convicted individual in the White House other than a lack of support for a woman who knows the law? He uses his authority to suppress, threaten, and bully the judicial and legislative branches of government like a sadistic tyrant. He governs as one of the corrupt leaders of the past. These are trying times, but if we keep our faith in God and pray together as one nation, who knows? Prayer can change things. 

 

It's Your Anniversary America!

Many Americans will be observing the celebration of the United States' Independence this weekend. The festivities include fireworks, music, barbecues, and the donning of red, white, and blue attire. Citizens will reflect on the sacrifices made by others and remain mindful of the events that transpired centuries ago in American history, specifically the wars fought and the lives lost in the struggle against the tyrannical English monarchy. Following an arduous battle that resulted in numerous casualties among Americans and British forces, representatives from the Second Continental Congress adopted the Declaration of Independence on July 4, 1776. On August 2, 1776, fifty-six representatives signed it. Six of these signatories affixed their signatures for approximately 18 months. Nevertheless, an official declaration of independence, the pursuit of happiness, and the principle that all men are created equal were proclaimed. But were all men equal?

As of July 4, 2025, a significant and comprehensive budget bill has been enacted by a figure of American origin, illustrating the notion that equality among individuals and citizens is not universally upheld. The authorities in our government appear to continue their celebrations, perceiving their actions as fulfilling the desires of the dictator by this date. Over 16 million American citizens are expected to endure hardships due to the lack of health insurance, food shortages, reduced assistance programs, housing insecurity, and diminished retirement benefits. Is there anyone within this demographic who would find such circumstances worth celebrating? Does this outcome align with the principles envisioned by the signers of the Declaration of Independence? A nation founded by immigrants and enslaved individuals demonstrates an unusual manner of expressing appreciation through the neglect and erasure of its historical origins and the deportation of these groups. The Republican Party appears to have diminished its respect for divine principles, the family unit, and the nation itself. 

Regarding the issue of freedom, President Lincoln signed the Emancipation Proclamation on January 1, 1863, which addressed the issue of slavery. However, the enslaved individuals in Texas were not informed of this until June 19, 1865. General Gordon Grainger of the Union arrived and announced their emancipation. Texas was the final Confederate territory to become aware of and communicate this information to the enslaved population. The full details may remain unknown.

I question whether politicians who endorsed the “One Big Beautiful Bill” fully appreciated how this detrimental budget legislation diminishes the financial standing of the middle class and impoverished populations, whilst augmenting the wealth of the affluent and the national budget. This legislation does not generate savings; rather, it exacerbates the deficit by diminishing funds allocated for social programs intended to support education, families, and the nation. These politicians have entered into a harmful agreement, and when consequences unfold, it will not be prudent to delay repentance. Will their constituents continue to support them, or will they recall the sense of betrayal they experienced during the midterm elections? I do know that God is in control and will rule the land with justice and peace. 2 Chronicles 7:14 NIV states “If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” We must believe that God keeps His promises. It’s up to us to get on our knees and pray.

 

 

Warfare Between the Flesh and the Spirit!

I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed, everyone! I've reached a point where my actions no longer make sense, even to me. Each morning, I make it a habit to read my Bible and other spiritual teachings. Last week, I began exploring the Holy Spirit, who is part of the Holy Trinity. I understand enough not to overstep the mystery of the three in One, but I was eager to learn more about the Spirit’s nature. For the past two weeks, I've been praying to be guided by the Spirit, who hears and intercedes for our salvation. However, this week, I’ve hit a bit of a spiritual wall that’s left me feeling puzzled about my thoughts and actions.

I'm generally a very organized person, but I am rigid at times. I hadn't realized how challenging it can be when things don't go as planned or don't align with my expectations. Recently, I had to accept two rescheduled appointments, even though I wasn't excited about it. I also tried replanting my vegetables, which was a bit stressful and almost damaged them. I was a little disappointed because, despite growing nicely and producing fruit, the veggies had outgrown their containers. I even considered spraying pesticides to protect them from pests, but I wanted to keep them organic. I looked for safe homemade remedies to deal with the mites or bugs, but I couldn't find any that worked.

I’m not finished yet. I took my car in for an oil change, and anyone who's ever been through the process of visiting an auto repair shop knows that preventative maintenance can sometimes be more complicated than expected. I left my vehicle at the shop for the first time in years because my wife and I had an appointment to attend. I was hoping the car would be ready when we returned in a few hours. Instead, I received a text from the service department informing me that they had found a leak in the power steering line and would contact my insurance company to determine if it was covered under warranty. In the past, I have not encountered any issues. After some time, the agent texted that the claim was denied.

I went home and searched for my contract, but I couldn’t find it. I then tried to download it online, but that didn’t work either. So, I called the company, and they informed me that they were experiencing issues with their computers and couldn’t open any documents. They did mention they had received a request from the dealership, but I was puzzled as to why the request was denied when no one could review the documents. They couldn’t explain it. It made me wonder if it would be easier to tell the agent that the computers are down and to call back later. I was also thinking about where the honest, reliable workers are in this business. Are you following me so far? To add to the frustration, my wife kindly took me to the dealership to pick up my car, even though I was planning to return it after the weekend once I contacted the warranty company. I wanted the service agent to show me where I might need to refill the power steering fluid. When we looked under the hood, I noticed that the container wasn’t even secured—an easy fix, but it just didn’t seem right. I don’t want to drive anything loose, especially in the engine, on these busy roads. So, I decided to leave the car there—it was enough for one day. I didn’t take it off searching for part numbers, the service department did.

My dear wife wasn’t spared from my anxiety, and she often endured my struggles. We went for a walk on Saturday morning, though not together. I was wrestling with the inner conflict between my flesh and the Spirit. During that walk, the truth became clear—I wasn’t aligning my will with God's. My frustration and anxiety showed that I was hoping God’s Will would match mine. Sometimes I wonder, who do I think I am? I asked to learn about the Spirit, but I was still expecting everything to happen my way. No wonder I felt so frustrated and exhausted. My mind has been resisting the Spirit, and I’ve broken many spiritual laws—so many that it would take pages to list them all. I have a good, loving woman who does not deserve this type of behavior from me. The walk was my wife’s idea to get me out of the house. By the time we returned, her stomach was upset because of me.

As I continue to grow spiritually, I understand the importance of disciplining myself to live fully in the spirit and surrender my mind to that spiritual guidance. Currently, I find myself in a challenging situation with my wife, having made a mistake that I deeply regret. I am grateful that God's grace is giving me another chance to do better. I want to focus my thoughts on what is above, rather than on earthly concerns. Truly, I need to transform my mind to align with what is spiritual and avoid being shaped by worldly thoughts. I will continue praying for the Holy Spirit to lead me. 

History in the Making!

         We are living in remarkable times, and it's disheartening to see that history is being rewritten. It’s truly painful to think of how our ancestors would react to knowing that their contributions are overlooked by some who dislike the color of our skin. This kind of hate has echoed through the ages. Unfortunately, it appears to have taken a strong hold in our governmental leadership, and those who elected them want these decisions to be implemented. People of color have played a vital role in building this mighty nation, contributing their inventions, critical thinking, and even sacrificing their well-being. Brave Americans have fought and lost their lives through bombs and assassinations to uphold the rights of all. Yet, in recent months, we’ve witnessed troubling actions that undermine justice and democracy, with our leaders stripping away the rights of citizens, especially those who are most vulnerable and have no one to turn to.

 

         It’s truly disheartening to see that programs designed to assist American citizens with special and economic needs are facing cuts, especially when that funding seems to be directed toward helping the wealthy, who already possess generational wealth. I don't mean to sound overly gloomy, but it disturbs me how proud some may seem of the double standards present in our government. Issues like corruption within the Supreme Court often go unnoticed or unreported. It feels like the blindfolds are off, and unfortunately, some judges appear to prioritize money over justice, allowing a pay-to-play mentality to emerge. It's concerning to think that we currently have a felon leading the country, alongside many others in positions of power. The ongoing battle against fake news has led many to question the credibility of any news source. While some reports seem to lean towards the far right, it’s essential to acknowledge that many owners have connections to those in power. Journalists who strive to reveal the truth often face consequences, creating an atmosphere of fear for others who wish to speak honestly. This is indeed a troubling situation. The deregulations and elimination of entire departments mean that anyone who supports DEI could find themselves without funding or tax breaks.

 

         It's essential to recognize the diverse forms and evolution of social media. Initially, it was designed to help us stay connected with classmates, former classmates, family, and friends. We could share news in real-time, reaching people all around the world in just minutes! Folks began using social media to express their personal beliefs and explore new ideas. Eventually, the owners of these media platforms began rewarding those who were most effective in promoting content, which opened new revenue streams. However, some individuals found ways to leverage this format for political gain, sometimes leading to the dissemination of misinformation to broader audiences. As a result, influencers emerged and became key players, capturing the attention of politicians eager to engage with them. Artificial intelligence, or AI, is here. It will soon take over the methods and the way we live. We already rely on Alexa and Siri, and now we have exciting options like ChatGPT, Google’s Gemini, and Microsoft CoPilot! Tech companies are emerging rapidly to meet the growing demand, which presents both opportunities and challenges in the workforce due to the rise of robotics and AI. The impact of AI can be either positive or negative, depending on the sources it uses for data.

 

         We continue to move forward with the comforting belief that God is in control and will always be there for us. I sometimes find myself reflecting on what our ancestors must have felt during their difficult times of slavery. For generations, they prayed for a miracle—one that would touch the hearts of men and women and inspire them to change for the better. Our focus remains not on our own will, but on God’s Will. Humanity has often turned away from God and His commandments, choosing instead idols made of stone or flesh, which are inevitably imperfect and flawed. Our religious leaders are facing challenges like never before. They now have the choice to follow God and stand firm alone or to follow a man and fall together. We know our time here is limited.

 

Does Lying Justify Doing Wrong?

    Sometimes I find myself thinking about some pretty wild questions, and I can't help but wonder why I've even said them in the first place. The answers could sway either way, depending on different perspectives. If I verbally or physically assault someone because I love them, does it make it right? Take this thought, for example: What if I had to betray someone’s trust to keep them safe from harm? Would I be wrong for the betrayal, yet right in my desire to protect them? Depending on some people’s perspective, there is a distinct difference, but can emotions blind them to the truth?

    If I acted out of revenge towards someone, fully aware that I was going against God’s wishes, could that ever be justified? After all, God reminds us that vengeance belongs only to Him. My spiritual upbringing teaches me that if I've offended God in ways that don't align with His Will, then I've sinned. Any action I take that isn't aligned with God's intentions ultimately becomes self-serving. God’s intentions supersede self-intentions. It makes me realize that I'm already in the wrong and struggling to find a justification for it. How long can I get away with that?

    Am I the only one who feels brave enough to share my honest perspective? Sometimes, when the moment feels right, we twist the truth just a little. While a little white lie isn’t always the best option, we often find ways to rationalize it. In the end, embracing the truth brings us the peace, freedom, and comfort we seek. In all this confusion, do we ever find ourselves comparing our journeys to those of others? We often feel the pull to present ourselves as the kind of people who uphold integrity to fit into a specific social mold, yet we sometimes fake it to fit in. This, in turn, can lead to deceiving both ourselves and those around us. Those closest to us often see right through it. After all, a lie remains a lie, regardless of how it’s told.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Some Words For Our Children!

I appreciate attending my wife’s church for several reasons. We attend together, and I take pleasure in witnessing her devotion as she praises and thanks God. This experience became familiar during our courtship, particularly when we participated in the Woman, Thou Art Loose events organized by Bishop T. D. Jakes. Furthermore, I found it remarkable to observe the congregants, filled with the Holy Spirit, dancing and rejoicing during the praise music. Given my lifelong affiliation as a Catholic, this experience contrasts significantly with my attendance at Mass. 

Additionally, the music and singing from the Praise Team are exceptional. The highlight of the service is the inspiring sermon delivered by the church’s bishop, with whom I find a strong connection in his topics. When we leave, I repeat his message throughout the week. Including Jesus in daily operations helps me to complete my assignments without frustration and anxiety.

I observed the interaction between two young men who were seated in front of us. They appeared to be brothers, with one being significantly larger than the other and seemingly younger. Upon their arrival in the row, the older brother gestured for the younger one to take his seat first, resulting in the younger individual occupying a position with an empty seat between them. I immediately discerned that the son had accompanied his father to the church. I was particularly impressed to witness a father who is actively involved in his son’s life. Given the prevailing negative narratives surrounding absent fathers and unruly teenagers, I found this sight encouraging. When the father gently nudged his son to accompany him towards the altar call, it served as further confirmation of their bond. What was particularly remarkable was the son’s immediate obedience. This was truly a fantastic moment. I didn’t see any disdain or hear any backtalk.

I later wondered what this father would write to his son if he could during his last moments? 

“Baby boy, when you were born, I held you in one hand. You were so tiny and vulnerable. You just stared at me when I picked you up as if you knew me. You became still when I started speaking. I was expressing my sincere appreciation and love for you and assured you that I will do everything in my power to protect and provide for you and your mother. There’s a lot to talk about, and if the Lord Wills, I hope to speak with you about it in phases. Right now, you’re too young to understand, but as you grow older, you’ll be able to understand me better. The main lesson will begin now. Your baptism into knowing God is next month. You are my offering and thanksgiving. 

Look at you now, at four months old. I see you are starting to look a little like me, but you have your mom’s eyes. So, your first words were 'Mama' and ‘no, son.’ I’m not surprised. Your mom talks to you whenever she gets a chance. It seems that all I do is change your diapers, strap you in your car seat, and give you a quick kiss on the forehead when I leave and return from work. I do get to hold you at church so your mom can get some rest. We watch the games together, but most of the time, you’re sleeping. I still talk to you, but you were always reaching for Mama. I like that. Man to little man, your mother is always to be respected and cared for, no matter how old you get. She will be your anchor and source of stability as you grow older. Always listen to her. 

I hope to always be there for you. Being Black in America comes with disadvantages and roadblocks, as some systems are designed to discourage and slow the pursuit of opportunities and freedoms. Many men who look like me have been hurt or jailed simply because of the color of our skin. You’re looking at me with curiosity, but in time, you will understand how much I love you and want the very best life has to offer you.

Well, well, son. You have now conquered peeing in your diapers and are completely potty-trained. You took about six months, while your sister learned in half that time. That is no problem. You will soon have to overcome the bed-wetting issue.

Regarding your sister, Joy, I want to remind you that she’s older and has a lot of wisdom to share. She might give you advice because she understands our family dynamics. If she happens to hit you, remember not to hit back. You can always block her punches, but showing her respect is essential, even if your opinions differ. Try practicing this now! As you grow older and enter your relationships with women, keep this in mind: no matter how upset you might feel, it’s essential never to use your hands against a woman. I want to take you with me when we work in the yard. I want you to learn from me about a man’s responsibilities. I was hoping you could ask questions that are on your mind. Any questions that you might have will not be silly.

Jonathan, I am so glad to be here to video your first steps. You seem to be listening to every word everybody says. I did hear you say no to Joy when she told you not to climb on the end table. She’s just looking out for you. Yes, I did spank you, but not for that. You don’t talk back to your mama. That’s why I tapped you. Spare the rod, spoil the child. I am not into parents feeling that it’s cute when babies talk back. Don’t start bad habits and don’t keep them. I don’t want to visit you in jail or at the grave for being disobedient and following the trends.

How was your first day at kindergarten, Jon? Don’t let your classmates get you into trouble by following them around. You are your own man. Some of them will try to get into your head and call you names if you don’t follow along with them. Would you rather deal with them or me? Your family will not steer you wrong. Don’t embarrass the family’s name. Well, I didn’t get much sleep when your sister started her first day in school. It did prepare me for you. I trust you two, you’re my heart and soul. I only want the best for you. So, trust me. Please don’t create a problem for yourself; ask me anything that is on your mind. If I don’t have an answer, I’ll find someone who does.

Wow! Time truly flies! Look at you, all grown up! Throughout the years, your mother and I have admired yours and Joy’s dedication and commitment to your futures. You've earned your doctorate in engineering and risen to the rank of Captain in the Navy. You and Denise have blessed us with two beautiful grandchildren, and I couldn't be prouder of you, son. Joy is a Medical Doctor practicing pediatrics. You both have guided your families on the wonderful path to God, setting a beautiful example of what it means to serve God. I’m so grateful to have seen our family flourish. Your mother and I thank Him every day for the amazing individuals you and Joy have become. I have loved you with all of my heart, even during our differences.”

Is this something like what that young father told his son? I will never know. I would say this and more with my own.

Another Year, Another Time!

Mother’s Day month brings a mix of emotions for me. On one hand, there’s a beautiful sweetness in remembering all the strong, compassionate women who dedicated their lives, careers, and happiness to their families. These incredible heroines found the strength to raise their children, often on their own, while always supporting and encouraging their young minds. On the other hand, it’s bittersweet for those of us who have lost our mothers; we cherish the moments we shared, yet we miss the chance to discuss our failures and achievements and hear their voices once more. 

Since 2016, May has been a particularly difficult month for me, marked by the loss of many dear friends and family members. When I glance at my phone’s calendar, I’m reminded of how closely their birthdays and transitions are intertwined, with just a few days in between. It’s a poignant reminder of the love and memories we share. I miss them dearly.

I experienced another episode like what happened in 2023 when I blacked out from severe dehydration at the graveyard. This time, I overdid it, pressure washing our patio deck in 90-degree weather, and started to feel lightheaded. By the time I thought I needed a drink of water, it was already too late. I made it inside the house, sat down on the floor, and asked my wife to bring me a bottle of water. She came right away, unbuttoned my shirt, loosened my belt, took off my cap, and called 911. The difference this time from last was that I didn’t completely black out. However, I couldn’t see, and my vision went dark, but I could hear everything around me.

I didn’t want EMS, but my wife didn’t take any chances. She told me to stay seated. While I waited, she prayed for me. I boast about a praying woman. Their prayers are strong and sincere. I thought about not finishing the deck and told her. She said that the deck is not worth my life. Then, I thought about being an addition to my May calendar. I didn’t want to be a part of that. But we don’t know the day, time, or hour when we are called. We can at least not do anything to speed up the process.

Take my advice: summer is coming, and those temperatures are going to rise! Let's make sure we stay hydrated by drinking plenty of water. Take good care of yourselves!

Stay Vigilant!

This morning, I had the extraordinary experience of hearing an 87-year-old English widow perform a piano concerto. The performance was a heartfelt tribute to her late husband, with whom she shared 63 beautiful years of marriage. She had always been an accomplished pianist, deeply passionate about music, while he found joy behind the lens as a skilled photographer. Both excelled in their respective arts but remained humble, often believing many others surpassed them.

Later in life, she discovered her talent for composing music, which added another layer to her artistic expression. Encouraged by her daughter, she decided to play at a local mall, unwittingly captivating an audience that included the renowned musician Jon Batiste. As the first chords filled the air, I noticed Jon’s face light up with recognition, his expression turning contemplative as he absorbed the profound emotion of her performance.

As I listened, I couldn't help but reflect on my journey. What does God have in store for me? What is my purpose? This connection through music sparked deep contemplation about my path and our unknown future.

One might ponder why I find myself contemplating my purpose at this stage of life. One significant factor behind this introspection is the recent discord between my wife and me. As she has taken a much-needed vacation, my household routines have been disrupted, creating an unsettling imbalance. She has been energetically rearranging, packing, and discarding items in the kitchen that haven’t seen the light of day in over a year. 

Accustomed to navigating the daily tasks of our home independently, my world has shifted since retirement. I manage our residence's interior and exterior upkeep while she dedicates herself to her professional endeavors. Yet, my domestic responsibilities come with restrictions that leave me feeling constrained. For instance, cleaning the bathrooms has been designated her domain; she believes my efforts in that area fall short of her standards. This division of labor has altered our routines and prompted me to reflect on the nature of my role in the home and our partnership.

Our friction stemmed from a profound misalignment in our perspectives and priorities. That evening, just before the dimming of the sky signaled prayer time, we found ourselves seated across from each other, the air thick with unspoken words. The tension gradually faded as we discussed our actions, revealing the raw vulnerabilities beneath. We took turns admitting our faults—moments where our pride had overshadowed our judgment, and instances where our words had cut deeper than intended. 

With honesty, we expressed our emotions; fear, frustration, and regret hung heavily between us. We acknowledged that our responses could have been more measured, that instead of responding with defensiveness, we could have approached each other with empathy and understanding. As the light faded outside, it became clear that our emotions had taken the reins, leading us away from constructive dialogue. Together, we committed to embracing a more patient and compassionate approach moving forward, recognizing that open communication was the key to mending our misalignment.

We must remain ever vigilant against the subtle tactics of the devil. He is constantly looking for vulnerabilities in our lives, seeking to exploit any weaknesses he can find. His greatest weapon is distraction, distracting us from the good and serene aspects of our existence. We might discuss this endlessly, passionately dissecting his methods. Yet, all too often, we slip into his traps, oblivious to the folly of our actions—until the moment comes when we are forced to confront the truth of our naivety. In these moments of revelation, the shadows of our ignorance are cast into the light. Do I mean it when I say, “I repent?” Then why do I do the same thing again? Haven’t I learned anything? I may have failed, but I will continue to push forward. We all must persevere in our efforts.

Some People Build and Some Tear Down!

One man meticulously constructs any structure, pouring his ideas and efforts into every brick and beam. In contrast, another man comes along and dismantles what has been built, erasing the hard work of the first. However, there are exceptions to this simple dichotomy: one individual may build upon the solid foundation laid by another, adding layers of complexity and innovation to the original design. Additionally, a visionary may gather diverse individuals, encouraging them to share their unique perspectives and ideas, extending and enriching the building process. This collaborative approach enhances the original creation and fosters a sense of community and shared purpose, transforming the building into a collective journey of creativity and growth.

At times, change is ignited by a single individual, while other moments see a collective of two or more collaborators, all united by a shared vision. Their motivations often transcend mere financial gain; instead, they may be driven by a deep-seated obligation to uplift others meaningfully. This endeavor could be rooted in a desire to forge a legacy that they hope will inspire and empower future generations to carry it forward.

Throughout life, individuals will inevitably prefer to dismantle rather than create. These people often possess a perspective that emphasizes negativity, homing in on the flaws and failures around them. For them, expressing discontent seems to be the simplest, most accessible form of rebellion—a way to defy the status quo by highlighting the futility they perceive in efforts to improve or uplift.

Now, more than ever, individuals across various platforms persistently try to deceive, misinform, and deny their troubling behaviors and thought processes. Whether through social media, news articles, or public speeches, many are twisting facts and presenting misleading narratives to protect their interests. This culture of denial reflects a lack of accountability and contributes to a broader decline in trust and civility in discourse. As misinformation spreads, the implications for society become increasingly dire, undermining our ability to tackle pressing issues with honesty and integrity. It’s alarming how many people readily accept everything they encounter online without questioning its validity.

The reckoning that awaits us is a universal truth, one that intimate and distant observers alike can sense for those who seek the chance to repent and amend their ways, rest assured that such an opportunity will present itself. Therefore, my earnest counsel is simple: do not procrastinate until it is too late to act. 

Throughout our journeys, we have all been alerted to the subtle and profound signs around us through dreams that linger in the mind, moments of heightened awareness, and the deep stirrings of our consciousness. We stand at a crossroads; we can choose to dismiss these messages, allowing them to fade into the background of our busy lives, or we can embrace them, recognizing the call to transformation and redemption. 

Turning away from our harmful actions and inclinations is not just advisable but essential. We can reforge our path by consciously shifting our focus towards God and the higher principles of love, compassion, and understanding. Ultimately, the choice remains in our hands. It's a decision laden with weight and consequence that can shape our destinies and the world around us.

Disappointment in the 2025 NFL Draft! Some Things Will Never Change!

Here we go again with the ongoing issues within the NFL. Before the season even kicked off, the draft revealed an unsettling pattern of bias lurking beneath the league’s supposed commitment to unity. Once more, it’s evident that the team owners view their players not as valued individuals but as mere assets to manage under the guise of loyalty. 

The harsh reality is that it all boils down to financial interests; a player without a team won't see those hefty paychecks that often lead to financial burdens. It’s a precarious situation: when the higher-ups issue directives about roster decisions, the underlying message is clear—keep certain players off the field, regardless of the justifications offered. The implications are profound, showing how intertwined financial power and player treatment are within the league. In this environment, it’s not just about performance but a calculated game of control.

For a couple of days, I found myself haunted by the ghost of Colin Kaepernick. Kaepernick, a name that resonates deeply in football, led the San Francisco 49ers to Super Bowl XLVII, where they faced off against the formidable Baltimore Ravens but ultimately fell short of victory. In 2016, his career took a dramatic turn when his peaceful protest against racial injustice and police brutality, symbolized by his decision to kneel during the National Anthem, captured national attention. Rather than confronting the uncomfortable truths highlighted by his actions, the NFL opted to release him from their ranks, avoiding the stigma of being labeled as racist.

Colin’s decision to kneel, rather than stand with his hand over his heart, was more than just a personal statement; it was a bold and courageous stand to raise awareness about systemic inequalities affecting people of color. However, this protest was met with fierce backlash, painted by many as unpatriotic and incendiary, igniting a firestorm of controversy across the nation. Since that fateful moment, not one of the thirty-two NFL teams has invited him to join their roster, a testament to how uneasy the truth made the league’s owners.

In the shadows of the sports world, whispers of collusion persisted, leading many to speculate about the underlying fears of the league’s leadership. The rising voices demanding justice and accountability were seen threatening the status quo—a modern echo of a restless uprising. Although no one would openly acknowledge any conspiracy, the NFL reached a quiet settlement out of court, leaving many questions unanswered and suspending the truth in ambiguity. His kneeling protests, meant to raise awareness about racial injustice and police brutality, generated intense controversy.

The echoes of history reverberated during the 2025 NFL Draft, particularly surrounding Shedeur Sanders, the promising quarterback from the Colorado Buffaloes. Expected to be the top pick on the first day, anticipation hung thick in the air, yet the reality turned out starkly different. As the draft unfolded over three grueling days, speculation began to swirl—was he being blacklisted? 

Conversations ignited regarding his perceived brashness and self-assurance, with whispers about subpar interviews with potential coaches adding fuel to the fire. Critics pointed to his confidence as "uppityness," suggesting that his vibrant personality might overshadow the team dynamics, especially considering the heavy involvement of his father in his burgeoning career. Much has been said about his father, Deion, but few have spoken positively about him. Double standards have existed for too long, and forgetfulness is too short. Archie Manning was involved in Eli’s draft, but that standard is accepted. Such conversations raise unsettling questions about bias and exclusivity, evoking a disconcerting sense of nostalgia for a time when individuals of color were expected to remain in the shadows. In this context, it becomes clear that the narrative surrounding Shedeur Sanders touches on deep-seated issues of race and the persistent challenge of overcoming societal expectations. Shedeur Sanders, born into a family of privilege, used his resources to carve out his path through lucrative NIL contracts and engaging advertisements. However, the respect he deserves has largely eluded him, overshadowed by misconceptions about his character. Few recognize the depth of his intelligence and the strategic thinking he employs; Shedeur knows precisely what he’s doing on and off the field.

A stark truth that owners and coaches often refuse to acknowledge is their failure to understand their players' unique perspectives and motivations. Instead of encouraging dialogue and growth, players are typically expected to comply without question, conforming to a rigid hierarchy. How many leaders have taken the time to inquire about Shedeur’s remarkable academic achievements? With a GPA hovering around an impressive 3.97, he stands as a testament to dedication and hard work, often dismissed as merely “uppity.”

Amidst the pressures and expectations, Shedeur has managed to maintain an unwavering spirit, a feat not easily achieved in the face of judgment and misunderstanding. It raises the question: Do those in authority even notice the resilience and determination he embodies? It appears not. The culture often leans toward “breaking” individuals to enforce compliance, sacrificing their individuality.

The Chicago Bears selected Shedeur in the fifth round, at pick number 144. He celebrated this achievement with his family by jumping into the pool. I hope Shedeur carries a chip on his shoulder and never forgets this moment in football history. Despite the odds stacked against him, he has the potential to equal or surpass Tom Brady's achievements. Never let them see you cry. The people in the world can be so disappointing. This is why we should put our faith in God, not man.

Rest In Peace, Pope Francis!

Pope Francis, the 266th Pope of the Catholic Church, passed away on Easter Monday, April 21, 2025, shortly after his last appearance to the world on Easter Sunday. He was born in Argentina on December 17, 1936. In his twenties, Jorge Mario Bergoglio underwent surgery to remove portions of his lung that had been affected by a severe respiratory infection. This health issue continued to impact him as he aged. 

In the weeks leading up to his passing, many Catholics feared they were losing him while he was hospitalized, but it was not yet his time. Although he could not conduct Easter services, he deeply missed being with his congregation. He was released from the hospital after 38 days and returned to the Vatican. On Easter Sunday, he was wheeled to the Central Loggia of St. Peter’s Basilica, where he waved at the cheering crowds. He found the strength to thank his nurse and bless the masses, expressing his desire to be with those who loved him. He skipped the meeting with Vice President J. D. Vance but had one of his cardinals relay and repeat his message on compassion that touched on migration.

Elected in 2013, Cardinal Bergoglio took the name Francis. St. Francis of Assisi was known for his devotion to the poor and love for service. He renounced wealth and luxury. Pope Francis took this lifestyle, too. He was known for walking alongside the people and living as they did. Although he could have resided in the extravagant quarters of previous popes, he chose to live in the Vatican’s Guesthouse, a modest suite. 

Pope Francis will be remembered as the People's Pope, a leader who encouraged love and mercy among all. He wanted to see unity among Christian Churches and was never afraid to speak out against injustices. Yet, many conservative clergy within the church saw him as a threat because he welcomed all into the church. He had welcomed sinners who were not accepted anywhere else. He had changed the traditions of the papacy, and the enemy within the church had issues with anyone who followed Christ. Who will stand up now in his place? Who is unafraid of vindictive and hateful forces of evil?

Pope Francis’ funeral will be this Saturday, April 26, 2025. Dignitaries around the world will attend, and security will be tight. I pray that peace will prevail, and no one will do anything to disgrace the moment. The world needs a day of peace, even if it’s temporary.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sources: Vatican News, April 21, 2025

Mindfulness!

The practice of self-awareness has a rich history, yet it often deepens and evolves as one navigates the passage of time. Each year, mindful individuals become increasingly attuned to the subtle transformations within themselves, both body and spirit. They may observe the gradual changes in their physical form, such as the softening of the skin, the shifting contours of their faces, and the surprising appearance of grey hairs sprouting from the nose and ears. 

Reflecting on their youth, many might recall witnessing these signs of aging in their elders, and this observation often sparks a sense of wonder. Did those older generations truly acknowledge the march of time, or did they overlook these fleeting signs of life’s inevitable progression? I’m sure they had enough concerns with living during those times. Not much different than now. Different times, different problems.

In the exuberance of youth, distractions abound, making it easy for young people to prioritize what seems urgent over what truly matters. The concerns of earlier years, which once felt paramount, can fade into the background as one grows wiser. This evolution underscores the unique advantages of youth while simultaneously illuminating a profound aspect of maturity: the gradual acceptance of change and the enriched understanding of oneself that comes with embracing the journey of growing up.

Reflecting on my experiences, I realize that my mind can simultaneously spin through a thousand ideas. Yet, in practical terms, I can only focus on a single task at any given moment. It’s as if I wander through a labyrinth of thoughts, often feeling momentarily disoriented. To counteract this mental whirlwind, I seek engaging tasks that capture my attention, particularly in the garden. Working around the yard grounds me and immerses me in nature's vibrant colors and textures, providing a refreshing sanctuary for my restless mind.

Yet, I find it essential to nurture the deeply rooted belief that I possess a purpose—a sense of worth and a duty to guide those who may tread the path I have walked before. I often reflect on the profound Biblical truth, “When I was a child, I acted like a child, but now that I am a man…” We have transcended the fleeting days of our youth; we are no longer the carefree teenagers of 40 or 50 years past. As we embark upon the latter chapters of our journey, navigating this course with intention and integrity is imperative. In this realization, we come to terms with the fact that control was never truly ours to wield, and it remains elusive even now. I must confess that there are moments when I feel utterly adrift, uncertain of how to occupy my time. Yet, paradoxically, I find myself caught in the relentless grasp of a schedule that never seems to allow me the freedom to pursue the things I genuinely desire. That is writing, researching my ancestry, playing word puzzles, walking, learning new things, watching new television programs, and traveling.

Is mindfulness truly making a difference in my life? The answer is a resounding yes! Through consistent practice, I have become better at organizing, compartmentalizing, and managing my thoughts, which used to swirl chaotically in my mind. I often found myself weighed down by the burdensome “wouldas,” “couldas,” and “shouldas” from my past—regrets that seemed to cling to me like shadows.

The journey hasn’t been easy; I face persistent challenges each day. Some guilt lingers from choices I wish I could redo, regret tugs at my heart when I recall missed opportunities, doubt creeps in and makes me question my abilities, and fear can sometimes be overwhelming. These emotions distract me from focusing on the present moment and the positive steps I want to take.

However, I have come to view this struggle as a daily battle, and each time I push through the negativity, I feel a sense of victory. Mindfulness practices—deep breathing, meditation, and grounding techniques—have equipped me with the tools to confront and overcome these obstacles. With each small triumph, I gain more clarity and strength, helping me cultivate a peaceful, resilient mindset. Everyone has personal issues; none of us is exempt.

Lord, the journey has not been easy. I placed my faith in the redemptive nature of humanity, believing it could shine brighter than divine salvation. I clung to the hope that a singular source, a beacon of promise, would elevate me from the shadows of isolation into the radiant embrace of comfort and abundance. I doubted that Your Grace would offer me more than the fleeting support of man. The lessons I’ve learned have come at a steep price, revealing the depth of my misjudgment in the harshest ways. Forgive me. I refuse to become a foolish older man.

Father!

A poignant memory of my father's absenteeism resurfaced while I was discussing my brief military career with my wife. I found myself grappling with a haunting question: if my father had been present during those pivotal moments when I was contemplating whether to leave or extend my service, how different might my path have been if he had been there to offer guidance? My wife sensed the bitterness in my voice, a lingering shadow of a wound that I had never truly forgiven. I reassured her that I had come to terms with my feelings long before his passing, but as the conversation unfolded, I began to wonder if I had genuinely reconciled in full. 

My wife often reminds me of a nurturing mother, embodying the spirit of selflessness. She has devoted her life to the well-being of our children, sacrificing her dreams for their happiness. When I turned sixteen, my mother navigated the challenges of single parenthood, bestowing us a wealth of attention and love. With unwavering determination, she resolved that her boys would not find themselves imprisoned by poor choices or buried too soon. 

After returning home from the seminary, I was met with the stark reality of my parents' divorce, a revelation that felt like a seismic shift in my life. As the eldest, I instinctively assumed the mantle of responsibility, eager to support my mother however I could. My younger brother, just two years my junior, was a spirited force of nature, often testing the bounds of our relationship. With punishment off the table and frustration building, our disagreements frequently erupted into spirited battles, a testament to the complexities of brotherhood amidst the upheaval of our lives.

As a child, I vividly recall seeing my father returning home from work, his big, black lunch box swinging by his side and his trousers rolled up to reveal his weathered ankles. He would call out to us, the laughter of our play echoing in the air, before disappearing into the house to change clothes for the evening ahead. My mother, gentle and soft-spoken like my wife, worked the night shift at the hospital, her hands often tenderly caring for little ones in the pediatrics department. Occasionally, we would hear the distant sounds of their disagreements—sharp words cutting through the air—but those moments were few and far between, like fleeting shadows in the warm glow of our family life.

My father was well-known in the neighborhood for giving pocket change to the kids our age, but we barely got words of encouragement from him. The other kids would tell us what house they saw him in when he should have been home with us. My baby brother expressed his dislike of him, whereas I hid my contempt and disappointment. But, one day, that all changed when I turned seventeen and back home. 

Just before sunset, we heard a knock at the door one evening. It was my father, and we were taken aback to see his arm wrapped in blood-soaked cloths. He asked if he could speak with Mom, hoping she would be able to tend to his injury, as he had been hurt in an altercation. My brother and I felt strongly about not letting him in. However, my mother, a nurse and a compassionate person, chose to help him despite our objections. She carefully treated his wound, stitched him up, and sent him on his way.

Initially, my brother and I were frustrated with her decision. We couldn't understand why she would assist someone who had caused us pain. Mom took the time to explain her reasoning to us, emphasizing her belief in the importance of helping others regardless of their past actions. This experience reminded us of her values and her unwavering kindness, which ultimately served as a lesson in empathy and compassion.

Not long after, Mom received a letter that my father had relocated to another state to stay with his sister. I found myself following in his footsteps by joining the Navy, the same branch of service, at the age of nineteen. My decision was driven by necessity; the military offered a reliable source of income, allowing me to send monthly payments to support Mom. When the day finally came for my discharge from the Navy, a mix of anticipation and apprehension filled me as I had lingering questions for my father. 

However, he had already moved from his sister’s home, leaving no forwarding address. For over two decades, none of us heard from him. It wasn’t until my uncle, his brother, informed Mom that my father had returned, now residing five blocks away in an assisted living facility, that we learned of his presence. 

Despite the passing years, he remained shrouded in embarrassment and shame, refusing to visit us, and ultimately, none of us sought to reconnect with him. Mom wanted us to see him, but we couldn’t bring ourselves. In a striking display of compassion, she would cook him dinner and deliver it herself, fully aware that we held no inclination to see him again. 

Mom dedicated herself to shaping my upbringing, often reiterating the age-old commandment to honor your father and mother. She emphasized that despite everything, he remained my father, urging me to embrace forgiveness as a vital step toward healing and moving beyond the burdens of the past. I was encouraged to rise above my pride and visit him—an idea that lingered for years. 

Finally, in my forties, I confronted this chapter of my life. As I approached the door, my heart raced with anticipation and trepidation. When the door creaked open, I was met by my father, who stood before me with an oxygen tank by his side. The man I once knew as towering and robust appeared diminished, frail, and burdened by time. In an instant, a wave of sympathy washed over me, and I couldn't help but see a reflection of my fears in his weakened state. 

I felt an overwhelming regret as I confronted the image of an unfulfilled life that loomed before me, one I desperately wanted to avoid. My brother, who had grown, married, and settled far away with his family, was now a distant figure in this narrative. He and his wife had embraced the call of duty, joined the military, and built a lovely life, never looking back to acknowledge our father. The silence stretched between us, thick with unspoken words and unresolved feelings. My father and I apologized and agreed to forgiveness, but were they empty words? We’ll never know.

I must compliment my wife on her wisdom and understanding. She is very much like my mother. I can see that I haven’t let go of my issues with my father. I’m still addressing him as my father, not Dad. I even remember calling him Mister so and so, too. As I have gotten older, I have several unresolved issues to address, a few of which my wife has pointed out.

Uncanny Familiarity!

Sometimes, I find myself pondering the intriguing phenomenon of déjà vu. I often wonder how many people have genuinely experienced or even know what it means. The Oxford Dictionary defines déjà vu as “a feeling of having already experienced the present situation.” There have been moments in my life when I felt an uncanny familiarity with the circumstances unfolding around me, as if I were caught in a time loop. Though the outcome may differ each time, specific details feel strikingly similar, as if they echo the past. Could we have encountered these scenarios before, perhaps in a previous life?

In various cultures, there's a fascinating belief in reincarnation, the idea that our souls are reborn after death to seek redemption and atonement for our past sins. This belief presents life as an opportunity for a “do-over,” where we emerge as a new being devoid of memories from our past. It's a concept that carries a certain weight, suggesting our journeys are cyclical, each life a chance to grow and learn. I’ve even heard people remark, “That baby has been here before; it possesses a familiar essence.” They might note a particular look, a stance, or a mannerism reminiscent of someone long gone, hinting at an invisible thread connecting generations across time.

Engaging in morally and ethically sound behavior can be challenging, especially when faced with societal pressures for acceptance. Many individuals tend to conform to social norms to fit in. However, Christians have a clear directive to distinguish themselves from the majority, often described as being a “peculiar people.” This call emphasizes the importance of aligning one's actions with one's faith and values despite the difficulties that may arise from deviating from societal expectations.

As we age, we accumulate a vast array of experiences, each imprinting itself on our minds, while simultaneously, we find that many of these memories fade into obscurity. These recollections, buried deep within the recesses of our minds, often lie dormant until a specific trigger brings them back to the forefront. This phenomenon can manifest as déjà vu, where a familiar scene, scent, or sensation stirs something long forgotten, creating an eerie connection to the past. In such moments, we may be transported back in time, reliving fragments of joy, sadness, or lessons learned, even if we can’t recall the exact details. This interplay between memory and experience enriches our lives yet reminds us of the fleeting nature of time and the hidden treasures within our histories. In other words, it’s a mind thing.

We are at a critical turning point that requires careful evaluation of our future directions. It's imperative that we get our lives organized and align our minds, hearts, and souls with God. When circumstances remind us of similarities, let us pray for wisdom to make the right decisions that benefit us and our loved ones.

 

Rebellion Or Redemption

    I wrestle with the clash between my fleshly desires and spiritual aspirations each day. One moment, I felt an earnest longing to submit to God's Will, to align my thoughts and actions with a higher purpose. Yet, in the blink of an eye, I can quickly become distracted by the temptations and pressures of the mundane world, pulling me away from that divine path I strive to follow.

    Some days are undeniably more challenging than others. On the days when I succeed in quieting the noise around me, when I manage to set aside distractions and truly focus on following God's Will, I experience an unmistakable sense of peace. My thoughts become clear, my mind feels less cluttered, and a profound simplicity washes over my daily tasks. Those moments of clarity allow me to embrace a more profound connection with my spirituality, illuminating my path and reminding me of the beauty of surrendering to that higher calling.

    Surrendering to a higher power entails an immense sense of humility and stepping back from one’s ego and desires. I often grapple with the notion of vulnerability, as I’m not particularly adept at demonstrating what some might perceive as weakness; even acknowledging this struggle feels tinged with pride. Yet, here I stand today, firmly anchored by the unwavering love that God has bestowed upon me. His boundless goodness and mercy have been my lifeline, nurturing and sustaining me throughout every chapter of my life. Without His relentless Grace, I cannot fathom where I would be now.

    I admit to my moments of foolishness and ignorance, recognizing that we all stumble through life with our missteps. In a world where the political and social landscape feels increasingly tumultuous and fraught with division, I question what actions I can take to effect change. Beyond the power of the pen—writing letters, articulating my thoughts—or participating in elections through voting, I often wonder what more I can contribute to this complex dialogue. Changing someone else's mind or heart feels insurmountable, especially when I sometimes struggle to alter my perspectives.

    However, at the core of this journey lies the theme of redemption, a profound reminder that God’s compassion is vast and available to anyone who seeks forgiveness. In that belief, I find hope, clinging to the understanding that even in my limitations, there is a path toward grace and renewal for all who earnestly seek it.

    Recent observations have led me to reflect on the impact of aging on my viewpoint. During a recent drive, I encountered a person lying on the concrete outside a bus stop at a busy intersection, covered in blankets and cardboard, seemingly unresponsive amidst morning traffic. Moments later, I saw a young man holding a sign that read “Need help” at another intersection just two miles away. This experience prompted me to consider the potential for meaningful change in one of the wealthiest countries in the world. If society could prioritize the needs of vulnerable populations, including those facing social, economic, and mental health challenges, there might be opportunities for permanent relief. As I drove past these individuals, I hoped for a more compassionate approach to supporting those in need.

    The world today is engulfed in a vibrant public rebellion, a phenomenon not unlike those seen in ancient times. One might label this era modern, yet fundamentally, there is nothing new under the sun. I hold a sincere conviction that the trajectory of this cycle of rebellion can be altered if not entirely transformed. History has recorded this and should not be erased to protect the future. We should learn from our mistakes and not repeat them.

    To break the unrest, the sins of previous generations, even those that did not directly involve the present descendants, must be acknowledged and addressed. Instead, many current generations find themselves reaping the rewards of these same transgressions—indulging in the allure of idolatry, embracing wealth, wielding power, and basking in a sense of entitlement—rather than standing up against the injustices perpetuated by their forebears. The moment is now! No one will take away anything you have. Sacrifice your pride, not your morals. Otherwise, the enemy from the outside will destroy the nation from the inside.

    There lurks an unmistakable fear among them, a concern that speaking out might result in the loss of what was wrongfully seized from the ancestors of others. Consequently, we are entangled in a mutual quest for comfort and an idealized lifestyle, often at the expense of striving for a more profound existence within the Kingdom of God. Despite the transient nature of our earthly lives, our thoughts frequently gravitate toward what legacy we will leave behind rather than contemplating the eternal consequences of our choices, whether hellish or blissful.

Righteous vs Rebellious!

I used to believe that righteousness was synonymous with holiness, a lofty ideal that felt impossibly out of reach. My mind, steeped in a carnal perspective, viewed righteousness almost as a distant star; I could admire it, yet never hope to touch it. The weight of my sins loomed heavy, convincing me that spiritual purity was an unattainable goal for someone like me. It wasn't until I delved into the dictionary that I began to peel back the layers of my misunderstanding. According to Merriam-Webster, "righteous" is acting according to divine or moral law, embodying a state free from guilt or sin, and exhibiting a justifiable moral compass. This definition struck me, yet I still struggled with being free from sin or possessing virtuous morals. It became increasingly clear that my inclination to resist what was right, in favor of what was wrong, was a form of rebellion against God’s commandments, a silent act of defiance that I had failed to recognize until now.

Rebellious was defined as tending to fight against or disobey authority; it suggests being stubborn, defiant, and uncontrollable. This description reflects how I once lived, and in retrospect, I’m ashamed.

I found myself out of alignment with God’s Will, living an imbalanced life that I didn’t fully recognize then. Distractions consumed me—chasing material success, seeking validation from others, and neglecting my spiritual health. In this state of rebellion, I thought I was in control, but the deeper I ventured into this chaotic lifestyle, the more disconnected I felt from my true purpose. It took a moment of reflection and inner turmoil to realize that I had strayed far from the path of peace and fulfillment that comes from living in harmony with divine guidance.

Divine Guidance has been a fundamental aspect of existence since the creation of the Earth. Each day was designed with specific purposes, reflecting a divine order established by God. The sequence of days showcases the potential of creation, highlighting how much can be accomplished within a six-day framework. A seventh day is dedicated to rest and reflection, allowing humanity to express gratitude and recognize achievements throughout the week.

The calendar is also structured to align with the natural cycles of seasons and time, intended to support human life. However, humans have altered these systems throughout history to fit their needs, often deviating from the original divine plan. This deviation can be traced back to the early moments of human existence, where the Fall from Eden symbolizes a departure from divine alignment. The influence of a rebellious angel, Satan, led to the introduction of rebellion into the world and a subsequent misalignment of humanity with God’s intentions. Humans possess the inherent ability to discern between good and evil, yet they chose to disregard this understanding, resulting in a discord with the divine design.

Throughout the Books of the Bible, numerous examples illustrate how the faithful fought against those who opposed God's laws. "righteous" refers to individuals who possess strong moral values, adhere to God's will, and observe His commandments. However, this can also raise questions about judgment, particularly regarding the distinction between those deemed "right" and those who may be perceived as "wrong" and deserving of punishment.

I express this sentiment because it is evident that rebellions are erupting across our nation and around the globe. The tumultuous nature of humanity's defiance against order and authority will persist until we wholeheartedly align ourselves with God's divine will. Amidst this widespread chaos and uncertainty, we must seek clarity, truth, and understanding from the One who graciously imparts wisdom to all who earnestly seek it.

 

Always The Good Shepherd!!!

The other day, as I was darting around town running errands, I couldn’t help but notice the overwhelming gridlock on the roads. It was mid-morning, when you’d expect things to be relatively calm, not the chaotic surge I witnessed. I found myself pondering the origin of all these vehicles and the thoughts swirling in the minds of their drivers. 

Living in a vibrant college town adjacent to a bustling military base means my surroundings are a tapestry of students bustling with ambition and retirees enjoying the leisurely pace of life. The atmosphere is always charged with energy, yet on that day, it felt different—more urgent. 

With massive executive orders looming on the horizon, promising cuts and freezes that will ripple through our community, it struck me that we can’t afford to drive around aimlessly. Each car on the road seemed to carry a purpose, an unsaid mission with a destination etched in mind. Maybe, just maybe, we’re all navigating through the same storm, seeking clarity amid the uncertainty. It shouldn’t surprise anyone that we have more in common than differences. Yet, I feel the one difference that has separated many of us has always been the colors of our skin.

People chase their unique happiness in a free, vibrant nation, driven by personal goals and desires. Yet, in this pursuit, they often set aside the spirit of unity, prioritizing individual satisfaction over collective strength. With these new changes, many see societal alterations that can and will affect us all. Why are our elected leaders not standing up for the people, instead of sacrificing us to the wolves that are foreign and domestic? 

I’m reminded of the biblical verses about the Good Shepherd in John 10. It doesn’t matter which version; they may be written differently but have the same meaning. I’m using the New International Version (NIV).

“11 I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12 The hired hand is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep. So when he sees the wolf coming, he abandons the sheep and runs away. Then the wolf attacks the flock and scatters it. 13 The man runs away because he is a hired hand and cares nothing for the sheep. 14 “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me— 15 just as the Father knows me and I know the Father—and I lay down my life for the sheep. 16 I have other sheep that are not of this sheep pen. I must bring them also. They too will listen to my voice, and there shall be one flock and one shepherd.”

The Good Shepherd selflessly lays down his life to safeguard his flock, a collection of wandering souls who have strayed, captivated instead by those who chase after their ambitions. This growing distance between the shepherd and his flock paints a poignant picture of alienation. Yet, beneath the shadows of their separation, the Shepherd's sacrifice resonates with profound significance, echoing through the corridors of time. As the seasons change and the years unfold, he will ultimately return, a figure of unwavering authority, to judge the flock with compassion and righteousness for all eternity.

 

 

 

Why Not, We're On the Road To a Breakdown!

            In the current atmosphere, it’s a miracle that people haven’t completely lost their composure in their daily lives. The wave of anger and frustration many of us feel following the recent election is palpable. I genuinely believe that powerful interests manipulated, bought, and paid for the election. The electoral colleges tilted decidedly towards the far-right candidates and were waiting to be exploited for their advantage. We are watching people showing up who they are in real time.

What’s unfolding under this administration, particularly with the barrage of executive orders, should be no surprise to anyone paying attention. After all, we were given ample warnings about the direction things might take. It seems as if we have grown somewhat immune to the political shenanigans and controversies emanating from the highest levels of government, yet this has hardly dulled our sense of dissatisfaction. We are not amused by the lack of transparency, accountability, or genuine leadership we had hoped for during this critical time. In the current atmosphere, it’s nothing short of a miracle that people haven’t completely lost their composure in their daily lives. The wave of anger and frustration many of us feel following the recent election is palpable. I genuinely believe that the election was manipulated, bought and paid for by powerful interests. The electoral colleges tilted decidedly towards the far-right candidates, were waiting to be exploited to their advantage. 

What’s unfolding under this administration, particularly with the barrage of executive orders, should be no surprise to anyone paying attention. After all, we were given ample warnings about the direction things might take. It seems as if we have grown somewhat immune to the political shenanigans and controversies emanating from the highest levels of government, yet this has hardly dulled our sense of dissatisfaction. We are not amused by the lack of transparency, accountability, or genuine leadership we hoped for during this critical time. 

Today marked the climax of a shameful week characterized by embarrassment, humiliation, and apparent bullying from the President and Vice President toward the leaders of England, France, and Ukraine. It begs the question: Why do entitled individuals often behave so foolishly? How can we possibly blame the Ukrainian President for his reluctance to embrace peace when our President seems to dismiss the notion of harmony within our nation? 

The administration may have framed the cacophony of shouting and the uncivil discourse as a robust defense of the nation’s interests. Still, it undeniably resembled a coordinated assault meant to assert dominance over perceived weakness. This so-called weakness surfaced as an inability to convey coherent thoughts, becoming a grotesque display of vitriol from leaders lacking essential diplomacy and respect.

It was a pitiful sight to witness the exchange. Just the day before, at a cabinet meeting, Elon Musk appeared to dominate proceedings, while only a week prior, the President seemed diminished in the Oval Office, overshadowed by Musk and his toddler son during their press engagement. If this was an attempt to project strength following a series of disheartening events, it came across as a cowardly exhibition, lacking substance and gravitas.