Come Holy Spirit, in the name of Jesus, reveal to me my thoughts and dreams. Why did I wake up with Peter on my mind leaving the boat for Jesus? Was it because he really wanted to do what Jesus is doing by walking on water? Was it for the thrill of being one of the first to ever have done this? Historically, Jesus and Peter were the only people to ever have accomplished the “impossible”. I question what drove Peter, faith or fame? The more I ask these questions, the more answers I get. Peter wasn’t seeking fame; he didn’t need it. He already had a business and extra boats, obviously, he was well known in the area. I’m thinking with an earthly mind. Socially, speaking recognition is important in today’s society. There are so many social network platforms on the internet that have members from multiple networks getting attention and followers. No fame, wasn’t it, fame can be temporary. Hero to zero can happen in seconds.
To me, staying on the boat is comfort, safe and secure. Why leave a place of stability and familiarity? The boat has certainty, it floats, it was built to hold itself together and could be steered to its destination fairly well even during storms. It was a shelter against storms. Why get out into the unknown, especially, if it hadn’t been done before? Since Peter confirmed that it was Jesus and received the invitation to come with him, was it that call that Peter put aside his fears? We all know that he was a fisherman, he wasn’t afraid of water and turbulent seas, he was experienced and respectful of rough seas. Yet, he was willing to jeopardize his life and fishing business to walk on water with Jesus. I need a revelation. What are you telling me Holy Spirit?
I think since Peter witnessed Jesus’ miracles, he wanted to be a part of it, to feel it. Peter could be foolish, but he wasn’t a fool. When he caught nothing the whole night and was tired, he listened to Jesus and placed his nets in deeper water (Luke 5:4-11). When Peter obeyed, it took his and another boat to get the fish to shore. He just witnessed the feeding of thousands, with only 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread (Matthew 14:16-21). Peter could act irrational and be quick tempered, but not a fool. Peter believed that if Jesus told him to walk on water, he could and he did. Peter’s faith at that moment was unquestionable as he walked on water towards Jesus. How much faith do I have when I have witnessed miracles in my own life and cried out when things didn’t change in my favor when I wanted them to? How strong is faith until tested by distractions?
When Peter took his eyes off Jesus and saw the waves driven by the strong wind reaching his knees, he panicked. He stopped believing and started to sink. He saw a threat and cried out for help from Jesus and received it from a waiting hand. Although Peter was lovingly reprimanded for his loss of faith and doubt (Matthew 14:22-32), Jesus still cared. He knows our weaknesses, always forgiving us and waiting patiently for us to take the risk to believe in Him. What if the odds are against us? Would we be willing to step out in faith? Of course, we are safe if we stay in the boat, but what if something happens to the boat? Are we experienced swimmers or water walkers? Can we handle unforeseen situations?
Even though my petition went full circle of leaving the boat, I get it now. Faith is taking a risk, believing in something unseen but hoping that it will accomplish what it was set out to do. Risk taking can be costly, it’s stepping into an unknown space an unfamiliar territory, possibly a dangerous but rewarding place. We won’t know if we don’t try. The unknown can be on so many levels. We take vacations, fly, drive, ride, shop, run walk, we don’t know the future or the possibilities if we stay on the boat and become complacent. I’m not sure if I would be any different than Peter. I’m not sure if I would even be in that situation. I do know that I pray for divine help when I’m afraid and anxious. I do know that Peter got out of that boat and faced his fears head on. Peter have been known to have said some foolish things but at that time he did not display any foolish behavior. He knew that it was Jesus in the water with him. Peter was a devout Jew who studied the scriptures. He might have remembered God’s Words to Joshua “Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go” (Joshua 1:9). Was this proof? When all was said and done, they evidently got back into the boat (Matthew 14: 32).
Epilogue
This evening, the dilemma with the “Boat” was clarified. While sitting in the waiting room at the hospital, I noticed a woman weeping. A nurse was handing her a box of tissues and sitting next to her. I thought to myself that I should pray for her, a stranger and a sister in Christ. My wife and I pray to be blessings to others as God would have us do. I thought it to be easier to pray for someone who doesn’t see me but to believe that I could be a help in a spiritual way. As I started to pray, I remembered my “Get Out of the Boat” dream. It seemed that I was literally being called out of my comfort zone and walk the distance to them. The Spirit kept repeating to me “Where two or more or gathered in my name…Matthew18:20”. I had to get off the boat and walk in faith. I heard that peaceful, quiet voice that told me “I will tell you what to pray, I will go with you.” I was having a Holy Moment and truly afraid of being rejected, leaving my comfort zone and doing something I have never done in my life. I am not a people person; I have trust issues. I think I am alright where I am. I even felt like Moses, why should he go speak to Pharoah, can’t someone else replace me?
I was shaking and tears began to fall from my eyes. I was fighting against a voice that I knew was telling me to “walk over there”, that’s your water. I tried to find excuses but I could not find any comfort in staying where I was. I was hoping that the nurse would leave but she didn’t, and I had to move.
I grabbed my book bag, got up and walked over there. I acknowledged them both but looked at the weeping woman and asked if I could pray for her. I told her that I have never done this in my life but was led by the Holy Spirit to pray for her. I prayed for Emily and during the entire time, I could not stop sobbing. I don’t remember a thing said except lift the burden. I gave her God’s blessing and left. When I returned to my seat. I realized that I got the revelation that I prayed for. Peter might have been afraid but he was confident and faithful enough to get off the boat. Seems to me that he believed and loved Jesus with all his heart, mind and soul.
To God, I give the glory and thanksgiving.
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