I took a shortcut today through a
residential community and passed a former co-worker’s home. I noticed a For Sale sign on the front lawn
and men working on the home. She had risen through the ranks and moved to
bigger and better opportunities in DC. We
never became good friends but we have held a few serious conversations at one
time or another. She passed away a few years ago from cancer. She was a wonderful person but some might disagree.
I mentioned this to say that the few
people we do consider friends, we don’t tell them enough how we appreciate
them. I, personally, have that problem. I've always questioned myself why I don’t
let people get close to me. It’s not the hurt that I’m concerned about, we’ve
all been hurt. My concern is the loss of someone in my life that I care about.
It’s draining so I build my walls. When
people care about me, I am reluctant to reciprocate. So, it’s easier to
distance myself. It may be selfish. While I’m avoiding being hurt, I end up hurting
them. Yeah, I’m a piece of work.
So, I move on without any explanations
and accept the blames against me. I’m getting better but tell that to the
others that I have already offended. My sincere apologies.
